Last Wednesday was a really hard day. And so was today. You see, stepping out in faith is really hard. You can't see the end of the tunnel and all you have to cling to is trust. Trust that this is the right move. Trust that God will provide for this new direction. Trust that He will take care of your people. Trust in the only One worthy of it all.
The hardest part of this whole step has been letting my girls go. I have had a lot of young women work for me over the past four years, but this group that we have now is hands down my favorite. No question. These girls love Jesus with all their hearts, they are fun to be around, have servant hearts, take care of me so well and work so hard. They pay attention to the little things and fight for what is right. We've had our ups and downs with staffing over the years, but these girls have helped bring beauty from ashes. They have helped restore the atmosphere at work every day. They light up the room and have made coming to work every day so much fun. I mean look at these precious faces! (This is from last Wednesday when I told them the news. Excuse our red faces.)
I have no doubt in my heart that this step is what is right for me and my family. But it's not easy when what is right for you hurts other people. I feel the weight of them being let go so heavy on my heart. I am praying abundant blessings on what God has next for them and have to trust Him to provide. It's really hard to find great employees, especially in our generation. But these girls are so counter culture to most people their age. There isn't an entitled bone in their body and they are willing to roll up their sleeves and help wherever they are needed. I know how good I had it and that's why saying goodbye is so hard.
As I sit here in our empty office with tears streaming down my face and worship music on loud after saying bye to Emily and Sara on their last day, I am choosing to keep trusting. I will focus on the next step because the bigger picture is just too much to think about. And I will cherish every memory and just be thankful for the time I had with them.
Tomorrow is a new day and I am so grateful for every moment of this crazy ride. As we begin to plan for the next steps, will you pray for clear direction, wisdom and perseverance? We want to walk step by step with the Lord and follow as He leads.